Richie’s Rants!

After so many months of inactivity in this blog, I’ve finally taken up the courage to write on this blog again.

My work’s fine although the training is getting intense, but such is expected from the likes of a high-stress job like being a pilot so I can’t & won’t complain much.

In regards to the other stress part, Love. Ever had the feeling that you’ve the love of someone only to have it taken away from you again? Its extremely frustrating but sometimes, one can’t blame oneself. Initially, I thought that there is something wrong with me, only when she told me that she can’t forget her ex-bf that I realise that there’s nothing wrong with me. Although I’ve been dating her for a month, the time spent is extremely happy & pleasant for me. Does she feel this way? Her ex have been treating her like crap but still, she think of him. Is it me? No, I’ve fully learnt that & learnt to let go that its not my fault but she can’t conquer her own internal demons. This is a battle she MUST fight alone. Can I help her to overcome this? I suppose I can if she wanted help, but she’s putting me off at arm’s length or maybe even further.

All I ever ask for is a chance to make things right & its not hard to find someone to love but the greatest feelings one can ever have is that you love the person & she loves you back in kind. Its easy to say ‘I love you’ but actually feeling the love is not easy cause alot of people just go through that ritual without actually meaning it.

A friend of mine told me that for me, to relate the story in which I can fully let go taught & reminded him of a good lesson. I’m glad that he learnt when to fully let go, that sometimes, regardless of how much effort you put in, it just doesn’t work out. This is the indisputable fact of life & everyone must embrace it. Even though, I HATE it. I really really HATE it, but there’s nothing I can do about it, so I MUST learn to live with it & live with it I should.

She told me that she hated me so much that she’ll delete every message that I sent, but I won’t give up. I’ll send her a message everyday to let her know that I’m still around & if she needed any support, I’ll be there. Silly? No, its because she’s worth it & I just want her to be happy.

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