Richie’s Rants!

After drinking very very regularly for the past 2 weeks, I come to realise that I’m no longer the person that I was. My notion of self has changed quite a bit. I thought that my drinking, and socialising, my social circle would widen, but I guess not. All too often, the people whom I socialise with are there just for the appearance. I would feel better drinking with strangers! If that’s the case, why am I invited? Maybe, I’m being critical cause I thought that as friends, they invited me along but I realise that nah, it’s not true at all.

Thankfully, nothing can take my confidence down anymore. I have everything around me. Friends, family, an excellent career, what more do I need? Hmm… Come to think of it, yes… I need someone to complete me. Could she be the one? I’m not sure. I guess that is always an old problem of mine. When I do fall in, I fall in so hard and quickly that getting out is almost out of the question. Richard, Richard, when would you ever learn? I doubt I’ll ever learn because… I don’t want to close myself in my shell again.

Oops! Hints of my inferior complex creeping up! Drats, guess I love to talk to myself. A way of staying sane in this insane world?  Only time can tell.

About time that I re-emerge from the shell that I’ve been hiding in for the past year. On this day, I just realise that I’ve been starting to drink quite a bit. What gives? I don’t know. Maybe life is too short to pass by too quickly without enjoying and treasuring every minute of it. Will drinking make me treasure it? Hmm… At least, it makes me lose my inhibitions and natural shyness. Am I shy? Heck, yes! What makes you think not?

Oh, another point. I’ve been looking up and down around my blog and just realise that this is the main point of my frustrations, that mostly, it’s my personal ranting space! Jeez…

Been listening to a bit of latin music and I absolutely love it. Been trying to find a way to add music in since a few years ago, but I think Friendster is not privy to that? Not sure, but anyway, I’ll see what I can do. Ok, my language skills are definitely going down the drain. Will work on it as my sentences are downright weird… Until then…